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Easter Egg High

Note: Start reading at "The Why"

What Happened:
In the emergency room they ask you to rate 1-10. 10 being the worse and 1 being the least. Well today is a 10.5. I can't sit, I can't stand, I can't walk, I just can't do it today. I don't want to do it today. I don't want to walk or work or sit or be around people or be in pain. I am tired of being in pain. Today is not the day to try anything stupid. It will take everything I have to hold in all of this and just be nice.....UGH!!! I'm so glad it's a Saturday and after I teach these classes I can go to bed.

Well that was the plan. After teaching two classes I picked up my nephew and his friend and took them to an Easter Egg Hunt. Lots of fun for them but not so much for me. I managed to be around several people and put on a happy face. The kids had an amazing time and I survived. I am ok with that.

After dropping the boys off I went home and relaxed. I took a bath in my muscle and joint soak and went to bed. I had a hot date lined up.....cancel. LOL! I probably wouldn't be much fun today anyway. I know I know. I'm going through this and thinking about dating... YES!!! I am still single. But I did cancel lol. Then 30 min later I got a text from a friend. A friend who likes playing with "trees". Although I have never partaken in these activities they say it helps with pain. After all they give it to people with cancer....right? Right!

OMG I can so see why they give it to people who are in extreme pain. The only thing that hurt me for 4 hours was my leg, in one little spot in the front. Oh the relief. For the first time in sooo long I was not in pain over my whole body. There was no fire on my feet. No pain in my hips. I could sit, I could stand, I could walk normal. I could be me. I was almost me. The person I was before Feb.10 the  person I strive to be everyday. For people with cancer...and doctors who recognize that this is a great way to treat pain Go YOU. For governments who are stuck in the 1950s who want everyone to be in pain so they can keep control.....SCREW YOU! Both of these statements are from the bottom of my heart.

How I felt:
Angry at the beginning. And relieved at the end. Ahhhhhh

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