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Not Again......

Note: Start reading at "The Why"

What Happened:
Today was a long day, as all of my Wednesdays are extremely long. I wake up early, go to work for my normal job, then stay 2 hours for an extra group, drive 45 min then go directly to church. Wednesdays are long. However, they end with me getting some good word to feed my soul so I am ok with Wednesday lol. On my way to work this morning while eating my fruit my jaw locked up. It scared me because this hasn't happened in a while. I began to cry and text my mom (because she makes it all better). She was at my grandma's and they both began to pray! I knew it wouldn't be long before it unlocked. It lasted 35 min this way. When it did unlock my face was very sore and I couldn't open my mouth really wide. A day of barley being able to talk or touch when you work with kids is a hard day. As the workday went on my body got worse and I ended up leaving work early and not being able to hardly walk. When I finally made it to the car all I could do was cry. I cried and I cried hard. The ugly cry with short breaths and ugly faces. I just wanted to go home and go to bed. I missed church and my feelings were hurt by that. I needed to hear something to feed my soul that was encouraging. I needed to hear a word from God. So as I lay down I prayed myself and asked Him to heal my body and if it wasn't going to be soon to give me strength to endure until He was ready to heal me. I reminded Him of His promises and praised His name. I am The healed protecting my health and I demand my body, bones, muscles and thoughts to line up with the word of God.

How I felt:
Not again....why is this happening again? I thought I was over this part.

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