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I am writing this blog as an outlet for me to express somethings I've been dealing with the past few months. Before this starts I will say I have never dealt with this before, I've been to several doctors to check my nerves, muscles and blood...all finding nothing.

I am writing this current so I will rewind back a few months to catch everyone up. There are a few dates/days I will never forget then some will be approximations of dates along with real feelings.  At this time I am waiting on more test results. I understand that some ideas I have or treatments I may receive may not be typical but I am feeling my way through this. There will not be any real names mentioned at this time.

If you have dealt with or are dealing with something like this please feel free to share. I would love to swap symptoms😏


About Me:
I'm in my early 30's
No kids, single, Fitness Instructor and Teacher
I live in a small city and am very close to my family and friends. I have supportive co-workers and people in my fitness classes that are amazing. I go to church twice a week and have a great intimate relationship with God.

And so it begins........

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