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The Longest Night

Note: Start reading at "The Why"

What Happened:

Two days ago I quit taking my Neurontin cold turkey. I did not know that you were suppose to wen yourself off gradually........I went from taking 1500mg to nothing. Help me Holy Spirit, Sweet baby Jesus! I need the father, the son and the Holy Ghost!!! All three right now! I am sweating like I  have been working out, my head hurt soooo bad and I cant stop trembling. This post wont be long because my vision is a little blurry but I wanted to write to explain the way I feel right now. It is 3 am and I have been up since 11 pm trying to not throw up or call my mom crying. I googled reactions to coming off of  Neurontin and I match most of them. Oh dear LAWD!!!! If this is what it feels like to be on drugs and come off....Never get on them but if you do just stay on them (yes this feeling is that bad). Every time I close my eyes there are images of Daffy Duck, Elmer Fudd and other characters from Looney Tunes but only half of their body is showing. They all seem to be cut off at the left shoulder down to the legs and they were all trying to come get me.  Then  in another dream I was running and running and running carrying this woman who didnt have any legs. She screamed and I looked down and it was me. I do not want to go back to sleep but I know if I don't tomorrow at work will be awful.


How I feel:
Disclaimer: I have never been on drugs so I am only going off of what I see on TV. So chill out!!
Like a crackhead that has been on drugs since I was 10 and decided today I would get clean...but I may regress any moment now!

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