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Date Weekend

Note: Start reading at "The Why" What Happened: This weekend I had a date and an outing with a friend from graduate school. My friend from graduate school came Friday. We always have so much fun!! I woke up sooo excited to prepare for the weekend! I worked my normal full day at work. What felt like the longest day ever!!!! When I finally got off it was time to drive the 35 min to get home and hope I beat my friend to my house. I didn't...lol but it was soooooo ok! Upon seeing him I had the biggest smile on my face. Although my legs hurt he was able to make me laugh and almost forget that my life was not all screwed up at the moment. It was so refreshing!!! Not to mention he is well rounded, highly educated, has a great head on his shoulders, hard worker and he is very handsome! We had a blast eating Mexican food and I even had a drink and it was delicious!!!! Like really delicious! Then we talked and laughed all night. He left just in time for class. I woke up excited

Self Talk Battle

Note: Start reading at "The Why" What Happened: Today was extremely rough!!! My entire body hurts to be touched. I feel like hot worms are crawling through the sand all over my body. I cried most of the way to work because sitting and pushing the gas pedal are two very painful tasks right now. Task....funny that word is used a lot at work. It usually is not only things the clients are to do but typically something not preferred.so it is followed up with a reinforcement.  The drive there I did my normal self pep talk to get me motivated. It went like this " I cant do this, Yes I can I have to, I should just call in, If I call in now its too late to find a sub, I cant be touched and the kids will touch me- they always touch me, if I go back then I've only wasted gas coming, just get out of the car already. Then my mom called and my mind was distracted and I had to put on a happy face and voice, even though I know she can tell. I played it off. Todays task lis

Keep Pushing

Note: Start reading at "The Why" Just to get everyone caught up: Symptoms:       Severe: burning in feet, pain in feet when I walk, splint like feeling on legs (as if I have on a brace),          shooting pain to hip from feet, hip and lower back pain, burning in fingertips (like blisters)       Less Severe: Pain in shoulders and arms, numbing in face on occasion and dull pain in fingers,                wrist and forearm. I feel like my muscles are not recuperating       New: sensitive skin, pain in hands, pain in thighs, shoulders and across my chest when I move,                peeling like feeling under my toes (like the being in the pool or tub too long and your skin                    splits)  What Happened: Today I taught 3 fitness classes and went to work. I also did a round of my boot camp class. A real workout. My first one in months... I knew I was going to be in pain but I wasn't expecting this. I am soooo sore. Sore to the touch! HAHAHA literally. It

Internal brace

Note: Start reading at "The Why" What Happened: Today I am in a lot of pain!!! A lot of freaking pain. My legs hurt. They feel like I have on walking cast on both legs from the bottom of my feet to mid-calf. Every step is painful. In addition my feet are on fire. I feel like Alicia Keys "my feet are on fiiiiiire, they holding me down but I cant stop now" lol remix!! I don't want to walk today. I just want to sit. I am so tired. While typing this my fingers are aching and my hands are going numb. Today has been rough. Tomorrow will be better....It has to be! How I feel: Tired. Lord just please give me something.

Reminder from God

Note: Start at "The Why" What Happened:  I woke up early this morning with a song on my heart and in my head that says: "I'm trading my sorrow, I'm trading my shame and I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord I'm trading sickness, I'm trading my pain, I'm laying it down for the Joy of the Lord! Yes Lord, yes Lord, Yes Yes Lord, Amen. I'm pressed but not crushed, persecute and not abandon, strapped down but not destroyed. And I'm blessed beyond the curse for  His promise will endure that his joy is going to be my strength. Sorrow may last for a night BUT JOY comes in the morning." I can do nothing but cry and praise. My body is in pain but He gave me a song to get me through the day. Today is a long day at work but I am ready. I love when He gives me something that reminds me that He is here, He sees me, He hears me, He will heal my body! I stand firm on His promise! I am ready! How I feel: Motivated, Happy, I can do t

OMG! OMG! OMG! 5-1

Note: Start at "The Why" What Happened: Today was an ok day. I worked all day chasing after clients. I taught one fitness class that uses equipment that I have to grip and hit. The pain usually comes when I hit the equipment together so I have learned to hold my left pointer finger up instead of allowing it to grip with the others. The pain is a radiating vibrating pain that goes down my finger. It is excruciating, but I have learned to adapt. In this class we also sit on the ground which is becoming harder and harder. I now have severe pain in my hips and back when sitting down. But I made it through the day! The class! and now its time for another class that requires more equipment, heavy equipment like big tractor tires and  such. Well I loaded all 4 tires, plus heavy weighted bars and various other equipment. Got to the location feeling ok so I moved the 30 plus chairs and 8 tables that needed to be moved. Luckily my friend, my right hand woman in class showed up and h