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What did you Say?

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What Happened:
Today I am so nervous and excited because to day is the day!! I am so hopeful that today would be the day that I find answers. I will go to bed knowing why my body is jacked up. Jacked all the way up!!! I am so excited I can hardly adult! In my planner my appointment is at 10 but in my phone it is at 1pm. I meant to call the doctor then the day got crazy. I showed up at 10 to find out my appt. was at 1pm and they would not see me early. So I went back to work then went back to the doctor at 1pm. I walked in gave him my journal where I have been keeping up with symptoms and all of that jazz. He ran blood work and told me that the nerve test looked good (I already knew these things because I BROUGHT it to him) lol. He was talking so fast!!! "It could be a brain tumor, arthritis, cyst on your bones, blood disorders or something more" he said. Ummmmm what did you say? I was so confused trying to take it all in, hear it all and remember the key points. Ugh! He did give me  a referral to have more blood work done and a referral to see a Rheumatologist.  He told me my blood pressure was a little elevated..uh I bet! I'm anxious as hell!!!!!! But I assured them that my blood pressure is normally fine. Then said "ok we will see you in a few weeks". I said "wait is that it"? He said "unless you have something else"....Um you didn't fix me! My body is still jacked up and now i'm confused on top of that. I was so disappointed. Incredibly, incredibly disappointed.
I called my mom after the appointment, cried and went back to work.

I took my usual car nap then went and taught 2 classes. When I got home I went straight to bed.

How I feel:
Sooo incredibly disappointed. I really thought I would get some answers today.  Oh well, tomorrow will be a better day.

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